I hope you all had a great festive holiday during these past few days! I still have another weeks holiday to enjoy before the near year officially begins, so during this time I hope I'll be able to get some well deserved rest after this hell of a long year.
Because the year is finally coming to an end, I wanted to do a sort of new year resolutions post. There is only 3/4 days (depending on where you live) left of 2014, so I'm making a list of things that I really need to achieve during the year 2015. So much has happened this year that has literally changed my life and I've had to adapt to different things really quickly for better or worse. Because of this, there are a lot of things that I started lacking in, lots of opportunities missed, friends lost, and time wasted, so hopefully by writing this I will be able to get my head into gear for the upcoming year, and give myself a head start.
Be more Organized. One thing that I used to be able to say a few years back was that I was easily the most organized person in my class. After leaving Secondary (aka, High School) I became really lazy and messy and it's started to affect my classes, lectures and coursework in college, my blog, even my health (when I forget to take my pills or inhaler etc). I need to invest in a Lists book and Planner for 2015 before the year begins and actually try to follow through with it.
Stop Procrastinating so much! This goes hand in hand with the first resolution. I need to stop slacking off and get things done. I've got to stop this cycle of not doing work and then avoiding classes to not get into trouble just because I wanted to spend "5 minutes" playing games and watching anime/nexflix for 5 hours straight. Don't start it tomorrow, start it today. Don't start it later, start it now.
Get a job. I need to stop asking my parents for money all the time. 2015 is the year where I turn 18, and as we all know, the older you get the more expensive the things you want are, so I need to find myself a job if I want to buy pretty things that I want, treat my mother to a spa day, or save up just in case of emergencies.
Be more confident in myself. The students at my college are in the same boat as me, my friends and family won't judge me, and I shouldn't care about what anyone else thinks of me. If I want to wear something a little revealing, it shouldn't matter to anyone else, If I want to dye my hair pink, that shouldn't matter to others either.
"True confidence leaves no room for jealousy. When you know you are great, you have no reason to hate" - Nicki Minaj
Appreciate my body more because i'm stuck with it for the rest of my life. I need to stop complaining about my imperfections and start doing something about it. I need to look at the things I love about my body and appreciate it, flaunt it. My body does so much more than I realize to keep me alive and healthy. I need to start being grateful that my body is free from deadly diseases and mental illnesses, and try to help my body stay healthy so I can live long enough to enjoy life to the fullest.
Achieve the grades I know I'm capable of getting. This year I finished my GCSE's, and while I passed everything, I felt like I still could have done better, I knew I could but I didn't and I regret that so much. This year I'm doing my Alevels so I need to pick up the slack and get the grades I want. That may mean having to hold back on doing the things I love but I care about my grades enough to sacrifice a few things. As long as I find a balance between working and having fun, it should be fine.
Reach my body goals. In my previous resolutions I talked about being confident and doing something about my imperfections. Some of my body imperfections is that I don't like the amount of fat on my thighs and stomach. I don't want to be extra skinny and have a thigh gap (not that there is anything wrong with that), but I do want my thighs and stomach to be toned because right now I don't feel 100% confident with my body. I'll need to plan a work out rota and manage my meals properly to achieve this goal.
Try to be more positive. I guess this is more of a hope that a resolution. This year has been one of the worst for me unfortunately, so I was pretty much upset, negative, or angry through 80% of the year. I want to make sure that I can minimize the amount of bad days I have by getting rid of the things that make me sad, so that I can be more positive throughout the year.
"No matter how hard your life is, you are your own architect, No one can stop you" - Kim Jaejoong
Try not to regret anything. I've regretted so many things that have or haven't happened this year, whether it was because of me, because of others, or just an inevitable unfortunate event, and to be honest it's sad looking back at all the things I wish I could "undo". During 2015 I don't want to get into any situations that would leave me regretting it. I don't want to sit there wishing I took an offer that may or may not have changed my life. Hopefully the next year will be filled with more "I'm glad I did this" moments and not "I should have done this" moments.
Learn to say YES and NO. There have been many times where I have been offered to go out somewhere or do something and I go with the wrong decision every time. If someone invites me to go to the arcade when I have a 3000 word essay due in a few days, say NO. I can go out with them some other time. If my friends invite me to a outing that includes people I don't know, say YES. It will be nice meeting new people and I could make new friends who may change my life.
Believe in myself. If I don't believe in myself my life is as good as dead. If I don't believe in myself, how will I be able to convince others to believe in me? I need to follow my dreams endlessly while holding my ground and not giving in to what the haters say. I have so much to life for and so much more to achieve. If I'm not motivated now when will I ever be?
"Hope is a dream that never sleeps" - Yuzuru Hanyu
Know where my loyalties lie. Countless times this year I have tried to get in with the "cool groups" by doing things to make them happy, but I got no love in return. I realized that most of the people I spoke to only talked to me when I started the conversation. If I didn't message then in 3 weeks, I wouldn't speak to them for three weeks. 2015 is where it stops. I need to stop trying to make people who don't care about me happy, and only make time for people who make time for me.
Approach people more. This goes in with the confidence thing to be totally honest. I've missed out on so many potential friendships and relationships because I found it hard to approach people. I need to stop thinking that people are out to get me and just as questions when I'm lost, or speak to someone who looks lonely. If people were out to get me, they would have done it by now.
Love myself more. I need to value myself more before I can even ask for everyone else to value my life. It will be hard, but I know I can love my self eventually, and hopefully 2015 will be the year where I become 100% happy with who I am. Once that happens, I can move forward wholeheartedly.
"You have to be able to love yourself because that's when things fall into place." - Vanessa Hudgens
Eat as much fruit as I drink water. One of my best friends got my into drinking more water during secondary school, and since then I've always drank 6-8 glasses or 3 bottles worth of water each day, the recommended amount worldwide. Unfortunately, other than the occasional banana or strawberry, I rarely eat fruit, and I think I'm lacking fruit in my diet the most, so next year I'm going to try my hardest to eat more fruit. I won't attempt 5 a day straight away but if I go slowly, I should be eating 5 a day regularly by june!
Take lots of photo's! I didn't take as many photo's as I did in 2013 which is a shame because in the middle of all the bad times there were a few great events that happened this year, and I didn't get to capture the moment. One thing that will become an essential in my bag is my camera, so that I can capture every part of 2014 that makes me smile.
Trust in my instincts and first choices. Gone are the days where I go with the second option despite my first option being the right choice. I've lost far too many games on solitaire because I made a wrong move that put a halt to my next one. I've wasted time being nice to girls who I had bad hunches about, who all ended up being snobs. My first thought and choice is usually the right one.
Just do it! I need to stop thinking about what could go wrong and well.. just do it. Nike can explain it better for me haha.
"Quit making excuses, putting it off, complaining about it, dreaming about it, whining about it, crying about it. Believing you can't, worrying if you can. Waiting until you're older, skinner, richer, braver, or all around better. Suck it up. Hold on tight. Say a Prayer. Make a Plan. If you want to do it, Just do it." - ✔
That's it for my bucket list! It was a lot longer than I expected so If you're still reading this, thank you! 2014 is on its way out and I'm super excited to see what the next year has to offer! If all goes well I will be able to tick all of these resolutions off my list by the end of the year.
What is your most important new years resolution? I would love to hear it!